In this section we will be featuring a number of personal examples, which clients, associates and colleagues have constructed as part of their own journey into the labyrinth of subpersonalities. The reason we decided to feature these was to offer what we believe to be helpful illustrations of how this task can be undertaken.
The examples include individual conversations with particular subpersonalities, usually the primary ones, encouraging those subpersonalities to become virtue facing. There are also examples where, in the creation of a peace treaty, all the main subpersonalities are addressed, as part of the rallying cry to create a community of the self that is harmonious, content and fixated on well-being.
We hope you find these examples inspiring and beneficial. Please do not treat them as something you need to follow; what we hope is they will trigger your own creative intelligence to come up with something that’s right for you.
Peace Treaty
It’s wonderful to have spent so much time with you all recently and to have had the opportunity to get to know you all better. It’s warmed my heart to see you all here today and I can sense that you’ve all shown up in the same spirit as I have – one of love, appreciation, compassion, open mindedness, enthusiasm, hope and positivity. I really believe that what we are going to begin today is the most important thing we have ever done, individually and together.
We are going to create a mutual agreement that will not only ensure future protection for us all, it will protect us in a way that also facilitates our growth. This growth is so important, as this is what actually strengthens and optimises our ability to protect, and so begins the most beautiful, life enhancing, virtuous cycle for us all.
It really is time for change – in our desperation to create protection, we have shunned and feared growth, and we’ve done this to our detriment. We have not understood that the more growth we embrace, the more protection we create. Growth strengthens protection, and healthy protection facilitates growth. It is so important that we understand this, as today we are going to create an agreement to literally turn in the opposite direction, to face the sun rather than hide in the darkness. The sun has always been there, enticing us to bask in its light and warmth, we were just too preoccupied with the darkness to notice.
I want us to all step into the sun together and allow her warmth and light to illuminate all that is wonderful, powerful and majestic in all of us. For every fear based attribute that we have aligned ourselves with, there exists a far more powerful and enduring love based attribute, and it is only in turning towards the light that we can allow these attributes to shine through.
For each of us, this will require different adjustments, but for all of us, it will require courage and faith. What we need to remember is that we all have this in abundance, as we will discover when we take our first steps towards the truth.
So, individually this is what needs to be done:
Controller
You are incredible and have done such a wonderful job. For now, all I need you to do is to relax, to soften, and to breathe. You have spent a lifetime trying to control the uncontrollable and you’re exhausted.
Raise your head, and look around – we are all on your side, I am on your side, and we are all so naturally powerful and resourceful. Lean into us, and absorb our love and strength. You have taken the burden of responsibility entirely on your shoulders and it’s time to lay it down now. The truth is, when we stand together, there is no need to control in this way, with this rigidity and intensity, together we will always be stronger than anything that might come our way. We are more than ready. It’s time to let go.
Inner Critic
I love how much you want me to be the best I can be. I really want this too, but the best way for us to do this is through kindness and compassion, not harsh judgement. What I want from you is encouragement, and some cheerleading! By my ally and my supporter and I promise, I will not let you down. Believe in me, and my abilities, celebrate my wins and look kindly and sympathetically on my losses to find the learning within them and together we will fly.
Perfectionist
I need you to let go and soften a little. You need to stop demanding the unachievable before we can realise just how much is actually achievable! If we can work towards excellence, rather than accepting nothing less than perfection, we will find that we are capable of everything. I love your determination and strength, your integrity and wisdom, and I want you to lean into these characteristics in the spirit of gentle acceptance and optimism. This is how we will achieve excellence and it will always be more than enough!
Child
You are so very, very beautiful, in every way, and I cherish and love you with everything I have. All I need from you, is that you allow yourself to know this, and embrace this with everything you have. Hold your head up high and own the truth of who you really are – a beautiful, strong, brave, joyful, lighthearted, resourceful, energetic soul. Allow yourself to shine and know that I will never stop seeing and hearing you, and I will never let you down again.
Survivor
Dearest survivor, for you also, my exhortation is to relax and breathe. You have done your job so amazingly well and you are so very strong and capable. Now it’s time to trust and to lovingly let go. We are all here to work with you, so please let us in and allow us to lighten your load. You do not need to do this on your own anymore and if you will just let go of the reins a little, you will have access to the very best of you – gentle determination, a spirit of cooperation and creativity, endless resources and boundless love. This is who you truly are, and it’s time to remember.
Procrastinator
You have lived in fear, hopelessness and inadequacy for far too long. It really is time to try something different! It’s time to turn and face the truth of your absolute magnificence – you are amazing! You are strong, brave and motivated, you are energetic and hopeful, you are focussed, driven, and so very wise. Please, come out from the shadows, and let yourself live. Work with the perfectionist to soften those unrealistic expectations, and you will see just how much is possible. We have so much to do together, and I promise you, we are going to do it all with love, joy, optimism and excitement. The best is really yet to come!
People Pleaser
Dearest people pleaser, there really is no need to keep people so close anymore. We are absolutely more than enough, just as we are! I want you to take all that energy and power back from all those people and invest it inwards, towards us all. We are the characters who matter the most, and we love, respect and cherish everything about you. We love your open and honest spirit, your kind perception, your courage and your confidence and we want nothing from you other than you being yourself – you, just as you are, are spectacular, it’s time to embrace it!
Coward
What a hard time I have given you, I am so truly sorry. You protected me in the only way you knew how, with everything you had and I am eternally grateful. But it really is time for change. There is no need to fear life or to keep us small. Together we are bigger than anything that could possibly come our way. We need to step into our strength and I exhort you to come and join me in the light of truth, love and joy. In the light, we see your truth – your courage and confidence shine through, your beautiful, honest heart, and your kind, reflective spirit are an inspiration to us all. Please, keep on shining and living in the truth. This is where we all belong and life is so much better here!
Watcher and Loner
My dearest strong and silent protectors and companions. What a wonderful job you two have done in protecting me, but how cold and lonely it is, out there on the periphery – always waiting and watching, ready to withdraw and shut down at a moment’s notice. What I want from you both is to simply come join the party! I want you to let go of the edges and step inwards, your place is here, at the centre of the circle of love, truth and light.
This is where you belong and we are all eagerly awaiting your presence. This is where you will find the very best of yourselves, your peace, courage, confidence, compassion, optimism, excitement, joy, love, and what you have always craved, belonging!
You have protected me so well through your withdrawal, but what you will see is that engagement and presence is so very much more powerful and enjoyable. It’s time to live, come join us, with an open and joyous heart and we will not let you down.
Thank you all for the promise and commitment you have made here today. The sincerity and passion that is emanating from you all is intoxicating and I am so excited to begin this journey towards a brighter, happier and more fulfilling life – together!
My Peace Treaty
I am a peaceful soul. A beautiful, peaceful, loving soul, having a human experience, and I deeply and completely love and respect myself. I’m committed to healing, becoming the best soul I can be, serving other souls and God, and this is my Peace Treaty:
I sincerely pledge to
- work collaboratively with my sub-personalities, helping them turn their vices into virtues and to become high quality versions of themselves, as we re-connect my community of the self and create one, integrated, strength for good, to do the right things by others & myself, with wisdom, humility, loving kindness, determination & patience, and trusting the outcomes to Karma & God.
I sincerely pledge to
- use my Controller’s strengths to help me to respond, not react, by using healthy control to pause and co-ordinate the contributions of my Child, Sage and all my other sub-personalities, considering each situation and my options before I act, from a more and more lovingly detached position. In doing this, I also pledge to work with my Controller and Sage to manage what I can, and to recognise, accept and let go of what I can’t.
I sincerely pledge to…..
- use my Child’s sensitivity and empathy, along with my Controller and Sage, to respond wisely, rather than reacting emotionally, by pausing and tuning in to what’s really going on for other souls and for myself, and to do the right things for both, with integrity, compassion and kindness – meeting others where they are whilst also meeting my own needs.
I sincerely pledge to…..
- make the most of my Sage, working with my Child, Controller and other sub-personalities, to use my whole brain to guide me to do the right things, by listening-in to my feelings, intuition and inner, outer & divine wisdom, and not just to my own personal experience and intellect.
I sincerely pledge to…..
- use my Judge’s highly attuned skills, in conjunction with my Star, to judge others and myself as an uplifting coach, rather than a harsh critic, with kindness, low expectations, good intent and focused on the positives, including the learning and growth opportunities. In doing this, I also pledge to accept, forgive and love myself and others, our flaws, ambivalences and mistakes included.
I sincerely pledge to
- use my Star qualities in more virtuous ways, with humility, wisdom and strength, rather than force, to better serve both others and myself. This means collaborating with my Judge in selfless, kind and discerning ways to draw attention to other souls’ qualities to help them to heal and grow, by shining a sensitive and supportive light on their virtues, good deeds and achievements.
I sincerely pledge to…..
- use my strong sense of Principle in a wise and healthy way, to guide me to do the right things, with integrity, rather than to be right.
I sincerely pledge to…..
- use my Perfect Drive in a healthy way too, with a humble determination to do the right things, to good enough standards, sensitive to and uplifting everyone, rather than deflating other souls and myself by demanding perfection in all we are and do, setting standards I can’t even meet myself and intimidating others and making them feel inadequate.
I sincerely pledge to…..
- shift my Joker’s focus away from primarily meeting my own needs and towards lifting the spirits of others too, by re-channelling my sense of humour, creativity and positive energy, with empathy, wisdom and discernment, to do good whilst reducing the risk of causing harm with my bright shining light.
I sincerely pledge to…..
- re-direct my Procrastinator, working with my Sage, to help me to use discernment and my experience that things are rarely as bad as I fear, to avoid freezing and, instead, to either face my fears and use my talents and courage to overcome the challenges I can manage, or, to accept and let go of those I can’t.
I sincerely pledge to…..
- turn my Martyr’s passion, energy and commitment towards selflessly serving others, giving without counting and being grateful for and celebrating my countless blessings, instead of doing things too much for my own benefit, keeping score and complaining. My many blessings include my many opportunities and abilities to support other souls and help them grow, as well as the challenging experiences from which I can learn and grow myself, before forgiving myself and others for our mistakes and letting go of my pain.
Lastly, I sincerely pledge to…..
- turn my Loner away from retreating, with negative energy, and towards routinely taking time out to reflect, positively, before returning to embrace life and its challenges, with deep faith, self-love, humility, gratitude and courage, never forgetting I’m a soul having a human experience
I’m passionately committed to these virtue facing pledges and to creating a collaborative and harmonious community with my sub-personalities, for the benefit of both others and myself.
This is the first part of a conversation where the individual is making his way towards a peace treaty, and is trying to persuade the controller to form an alliance… Part 2 to follow…
Dear Controller
It seems so strange that we are only just now talking when you have been such a huge part of my life for so long. It’s only recently that I have realised how intimately we are connected and how hard and tirelessly you have been working to keep me safe. I think it’s time I got to know you properly, I can sense you are exhausted, and I want to make your life easier for you if I can.
Firstly, what I would love to know is who are you?
I am the part of you that never rests. I love and care for you so much and I will die trying to keep you safe.
Why do you believe I am constantly in danger?
The fact that you asked me that question shows me how much you need me. You don’t get it, do you? There is danger everywhere. This world is hostile and unpredictable and you are soft and unprepared. You are not made for this world and your naivete and innocence leave you open to so much pain and hurt. You are so sensitive and trusting. You do not have what it takes to survive, and you need me to protect you.
How do you do that?
I keep you still, I keep you quiet and small. The smaller you are, the less you are noticed. The less you do, the less you fail. I set off that feeling of fear that you are experiencing right now so that you don’t make mistakes.
I make you think, once, twice, three times before you act.
I keep your anger at bay as I know just how destructive anger can be.
I stop you making a fool of yourself because I know how vulnerable you are.
I help you to anticipate the danger that is everywhere and this stops you from putting yourself in harm’s way.
I lower your expectations of yourself and everybody else so that you can never be hurt, betrayed or disappointed again.
I have been by your side for most of your life, watching over you as you experienced sadness, hurt, pain and fear, and I have done everything I can to make sure you don’t go through any of this more than once.
I have been the responsible adult in your life, stepping in to give you direction and protection when I realised that you were not going to get this from anybody else.
I help you to manipulate the world, to watch and learn, and to realise who you need to be in any given moment to keep people close and obligated. I help you to change shape and form so that you can fit in and feel safe.
I am always trying to prevent you from making mistakes because I know how bad you feel when you get things wrong.
I do all of this in the best way I know how, by making your world smaller and smaller, by limiting the amount of unpredictable situations you put yourself in, by helping you fade into the background so you don’t attract any attention, and this all works. You are still alive, and this is down to me.
Because even when all this is failing, and I can sense that control is in danger of being lost, I shut you down. I shut you down to a place where I know nothing and nobody can reach you and hurt you in the ways you have been hurt before.
Honestly, I feel overwhelmed by all you have said – in a good way but also in an uncomfortable way.
In a good way, because I am absolutely awestruck by the sheer power of your love for me and the efforts you go to, to keep me safe. I just never knew, and I am so grateful for you. I have no doubt that what you do for me comes from a place of the deepest love and the very best intention.
In an uncomfortable way, because your determination feels ruthless and absolute and that scares me. There is a rigidity in how you see the world and how you operate, that actually makes me feel powerless and suffocated.
What I would really like to know is, what is it that you want for me and from me? What are your hopes, your dreams? When will you be content that your job is done?
The one and only thing I want is to keep you safe, and that relates to every aspect of your life, physical, mental and emotional. I want to keep you alive and out of pain. I want to protect you from the world, from sadness, betrayal, hurt embarrassment, humiliation, failure, despair, criticism, evil, anything that could make you feel bad.
And my job will never be done. I will keep you alive for as long as I possibly can, and whilst you are alive I will protect you from all pain with every ounce of strength that I have. Yes, I am ruthless, and for that I make no apology. I fill in the gaps for you, and in your lack of ruthlessness, I will always be needed.
So are you saying that if I were to be more ruthless, to harden up and become more self-serving, that you would be able to take a step back?
In theory, yes, that would make sense. But in reality, I just cannot see this, and I do not believe that however much you change, you will ever do a better job than I do in keeping you safe. As far as I am concerned, you need me, always have, and always will.
Dear Controller part 2
I’m so happy to come back and spend some more precious time with you. I loved our last conversation and am very grateful for your honesty and your willingness to share yourself with me.
What I have realised is how deeply you care about keeping me safe and I will always be so grateful for how well and conscientiously you have done this.
Our last conversation turned a bit towards the dark side and on reflection, I suspect that this is because you felt threatened. I wanted to check with you if this is the case. Do you feel under threat? What are you afraid of?
You are absolutely right, I feel massively threatened by how you are turning the spotlight on me. On one hand, I have loved your recognition and interest and appreciation, but I know you so well, and I know that you are doing this with an agenda in mind. It feels like that agenda is my annihilation and that terrifies me. I have kept you alive for all these years and I am so scared that you are going to stop heeding my voice. To me, that feels like we are standing on the edge of a cliff and you want me to let you jump off. I really don’t think that I can do that. It’s the opposite of why I was created.
Thank you so much for your honesty. It warms my heart that we are talking freely like this. My first promise to you is to give you the same gift of absolute honesty. You are right, I have started this journey with a goal in mind, but it is definitely not your annihilation – and this is my second promise to you – I am not trying to extinguish you or to stop listening to you, in fact what I want is the complete opposite. Why would I even want to get rid of you when you have been my most loyal and faithful protector for most of my life?
It’s really important that you hear this. I love you and I am eternally grateful for your tireless efforts. I really do believe that if it weren’t for you, I would no longer be here. You have had a vitally important role and you have carried this out phenomenally well. However, you have done this so diligently and single mindedly that you have been blinded to the fact that things have changed, I have changed, my life has changed.
I am no longer the small, terrified child who brought you into existence because she was afraid to live and afraid to die. I think from the moment of your creation, you have only ever seen me this way and I completely understand why you would do this. You were so very needed and you had a huge task, there was no time or space to take your eye off the ball, your job was all consuming, every second of every minute of every hour of every day. It’s been exhausting!
What this has meant is that in keeping me alive, you have had to try to keep me very small. You have put so many bars in the cage you created around me that although you are indeed keeping me alive, you are not allowing me to live. This is not what I want for us anymore. I want something better, for both of us.
I feel like I have spoken for a long time, so I want to pause, and check in with you. What have you heard from what I have said? How is this making you feel?
I still feel scared, but this is mixed with something else. I actually love how you are talking to me. I love that you are seeing me and appreciating me. For most of the time I have felt that you resented me for how I made you feel. I was only ever loving you and protecting you, yet you acted as though you were repulsed by me. So many times you tried to drown out my voice and left me with no choice but to shout louder and make you feel worse. In all honesty, this has been no fun for me either. I don’t want to make you feel bad, I don’t want to make you feel small, but I do want to keep you alive and I really don’t know how else to do this.
Thank you so much. I recognise that you are scared and uncertain but I am so happy that you are talking through your fear and resistance with me. This is exactly how we can turn things around and create a better way of living for us both. I guess it will all boil down to trust.
I am asking you to trust me. I know that this is a huge ask but it’s time. I’m not expecting this to happen overnight and I know that for it to happen at all then I need to play my part, but I promise you I will. I will show you that you can trust me, much, much more than you do right now, but I do need you to at least be willing to give me a chance. What do you think?
If you promise to keep listening to me, to keep communicating with me, I actually think this just might be possible. Throughout these conversations, for the first time in all of my existence, I have seen that there is an adult here, no longer a child, who may be willing and able to take over the reins and that actually feels good.
I can never apologise for keeping you alive, but I can see that I have not looked up to recognise that you don’t need me in the way that you once did. I can see why you say that I have stopped you from living and I am sorry for that. That’s not what I want either. Although protecting you was my primary goal, I do like the thought of you living and growing in freedom and joy. I want that for all of us, as long as we are safe!
So the truth is, we actually all want the same things! I know we can find a better way, and I want to reassure you that I will never stop listening to you. I want to be safe too, and I will do my part to ensure this, but for protection to be optimised, growth needs to be revered and this cannot happen in a cage.
This rallying cry is the final segment of a peace treaty, where the individual is mapping out a future for her community of the self. Having worked on creating a peace treaty over 2-3 months, she then ended up with both a mission statement, which she reads, as well as an audio recording, which she listens to in order to integrate those disparate parts into a beautiful whole.
A Call to Action…
So, Dearest Catherine, with your mix of authentic self and acquired self, (made up of the controller, inner critic, rescuer, child, procrastinator, saboteur)… let’s have a party to celebrate the incredible contribution that you’ve all made to getting me to this point. I couldn’t have made it without you all and I now realise that even though you lost your way, you’ve never knowingly harmed me.
At this moment in our story, Catherine, let us gracefully and joyously, with deep gratitude, act as a more authentic whole… but not without thanking all those in the party for keeping faith, and juggling all the misinformation and misinterpretations… laughing and crying together in the richness of such confusion… and knowing that at this point in time, this moment, there is only one loving choice and that’s to enter the moment, be in this moment, in order to create a better moment…
I/we, team Catherine, now choose from a more resourceful array of strategies… choosing to be part of a collaborative team of the authentic self, which always had the potential to be virtue facing… and always will…
For the rest of my life, I choose to love and to believe in my virtue facing authentic self
… I choose to be clear thinking, optimistic, solution focused
… choose to be accepting, patient, forgiving
… I choose to be willing to learn, find the jewel of experience, to be compassionate
… I choose to be perceptive, wise, appreciative
… I choose to be resourceful, creative, empowering
… I choose to act with humility, courage and curiosity
… I choose to find a respectful balance between self reliance and being part of the community
… I choose to care for my well-being through Attention, Affection Affirmation
… I choose to be a good, empathetic listener (to self & to others)
… I choose to recognise the brilliance of silence & the 3 gatekeepers, Truth, Kindness, Benevolence
… choose to practice the art of breathing and tuning into higher vibrations
Dearest subpersonalities, my expression of gratitude comes with a deep profound wish and sense of respect that with faith, humility, stamina, courage, gratitude, joy & laughter, my wise authentic self, will venture calmly and confidently to create the order and collaboration to thrive and remain centred.
Every moment is an adventure into the unknown and I choose love & my authentic self vision.
PEACE TREATY
Here’s a lovely example of someone’s journey through the maze of their subpersonalities, which led to them creating a peace treaty. The peace treaty is the whole point of this journey of self-examination. This person then recorded this powerful conversation she set up between the different characters, which she listens to regularly, and has helped to develop a bond within her inner community.
Dear Subpersonalities,
I have gathered you all here today because without you I would never have made it in fact – ALL of you are the reason that I have got this far in my life and I will be forever grateful for that. However, in getting me here there are now some things that have become entrenched to the way that I am, the way that I act and the way that I behave that really NOW are impediments to me going forward.
Dear Controller,
Although you have been just what has been needed to keep my busy life on track and for that I am grateful, it is no longer necessary to be so fixed, controlling and unaccommodating with others. If you could learn to be more flexible and patient, understanding things from others’ perspective, compassionate and accepting of their ways, you could release your happier true self.
Dear Inner Critic,
You are hard on yourself because you are concerned about what others think about you, fear failure and you can see problems where others don’t. Thanks for trying to push me make the most of my talents and find success in life but it’s time to be kinder to myself and to have the courage to face the fear of failure, content with my best efforts and find solutions rather than seeing problems.
Dear Saboteur,
You also need to work with the Inner Critic and be more optimistic about solving problems and not give up through fear of failure. Please be compassionate to yourself and others – I know that you have intervened in an attempt to avoid catastrophe but it’s time for a more positive and optimistic outlook to release the best in me.
Dear Perfectionist,
I know that you think that you are supporting me in my quest for others to think highly of me and to judge me favourably – thank you – we have done well through life’s challenges but this is not always helpful and can be destructive at times. Please learn to accept that your best is good enough, let go of the obsession with perfection and learn to be obsessed with a healthier way of living and thinking based on confidence, wisdom and optimism.
Dear Overtrader,
I understand that you want to get things done and try to make things happen that you really believe are central to your survival but the reality is that you are becoming exhausted. You need to learn to take control, plan your time and structure it so that life is more manageable and you are more measured. Please learn to be kinder to yourself and learn self respect – say no when over -stretched and put in place boundaries. You don’t need to overtrade to be validated or valued by others – have more confidence that you are already enough without driving yourself relentlessly.
Dear Child,
You are great fun and at times keep me sane with your perspective on life and playful sense of humour. However, your childlike ways and innocence are not helpful in every situation and should not be used to mask a lack of confidence. On such occasions you need to learn to be self -assured and courageous – find the strength and resources to maintain composure and project in an appropriate, confident and measured way.
Dear Chameleon,
I understand that you want to help me fit in which is a good thing and it helps others to feel comfortable too but the inconsistency has become confusing and at times the real me is lost. You must learn to have the courage of your convictions and be more self assured. Be brave enough to be yourself and comfortable in your own skin – you know that it is the honest thing to do and you are ultimately a person of integrity.
Dear People Pleaser,
In many ways you are like the chameleon and you have been working together to ensure that I fit in. In doing so you have not always been kind or shown self-respect and at times this has been frustrating and resulted in me begrudging others. You need to have more confidence in yourself and structure your life and make plans to ensure that your own needs are met and not compromised by the needs of others. Only then will you start to behave with consistency, honestly and be happy and true to your self.
Thank you all for coming together as part of this community of self and recognising the need to work together to create a greater authentic self – we now agree to move forwards;
With Flexibility and patience, contentment and courage, being positive and solution -focussed, kinder to the self and compassionate with others.
Stop being obsessed with perfection and learn to have more faith in the self and be more confident and optimistic, recognise your true value and develop boundaries dictated by self respect.
Being more structured, measured and planning time carefully resulting in more composure. Have the courage to be your true self at all times and in all situations and behave kindly and consistently with others without compromising your values and beliefs.